You all need to read the book “the giving tree”

Wow.  You can spend decades, years, months, days, hours, minutes,
seconds of your life doing something to help humanity and literally
have it all deleted by the raging sensitivity, ignorance, and
stupidity of this generation.

Literally, anything is “racism” now?  If you speak up it’s racist. If
you don’t speak it’s racist.   Anything you say and do or don’t say
and don’t do is construed as racist. The only thing that exonerates
you is to cower and chant as they do, apologize and self loathe.

You are all proclaiming your devout abhorrence of Greg Glassman words
and sever all ties and affiliation over the insensitivity of the words
“Floyd 19”.?   You’re all hypocrites. Self-righteous, herd following
cowards.  How is that racist?   How is comparing the protests and
violence, the looting, the vandalism, the “actual” unjust murders of
police and actual innocent people the civil unrest, the political
decisiveness, the funneling of all the like-minded believers to the
“hoax” of COVID 19?  How does this offend you?   It was merely a
reference point.  But now an actual criminal is dead, as the result of
an arrogant power-hungry cop, and all of a sudden that criminal has
all his previous sins abolished and Greg Glassman is the villain?
Man, you guys got it twisted.

I know Greg personally. I have for over 12 years. He didn’t ask me to
write this. I have nothing to gain or lose from this. I have no
financial ties to CrossFit, I don’t own any shares in the company.  In
fact, we haven’t even spoken since this erupted.   Greg has, for every
waking moment of the last 15 years and perhaps longer spent the
majority of his time, money, and energy on teaching other people how
to be healthier and live longer. Teaching doctors about health and
fitness. Teaching diabetics how to get off dialysis, teaching other
people how to teach people how to be healthier. His only goal in life
is to help you live longer while avoiding cancer and diabetes and
other chronic deadly diseases.  His entire existence is based on this
goal. From his family to yours. He has managed to create a business
model for this and in turn, generated a nice revenue from it.  He has
NEVER been greedy about it. He has never gouged anyone for it in fact
a lot of it has been free!  The information. The workouts the access
to it. But all his affiliates seem to have forgotten this. Most of
them have the platform and recognition they have only because of Greg
and CrossFit. You’re telling me that anyone on this planet would know
who the fuck Rich Froning was if it wasn’t for CrossFit?  little
boy from Cookeville Tennessee? Yeah, he might have been
crushing workouts at 24 hr fitness, but I promise you no one would
know his name.  Oh and what about all the money that Rich has made as
a result of Crossfit.  His entire livelihood is due to CrossFit!  All
of it, the same goes for all the other top athletes and or any other
athletes for that matter!  Rogue, really?  You only exist because of
Crossfit and Crossfit boxes? How dare you cut ties claiming your
beliefs aren’t in alignment?!  Fuck you.  They seemed to be aligned
when they made you millions of dollars, and gave you 12000 boxes to
supply with equipment!  How dare you!  He gave you all the
opportunity!  To own your own business, to help humanity, not be a
trainer Globo Gyms.  Greg literally didn’t even say anything RACIST?!
That’s the part I don’t get.  Maybe if he had said NO AFRICAN AMERICAN
affiliates will be permitted… then maybe I might understand how that
could be offensive, but he didn’t say that!  at all in any way shape
or form.  You are all so deluded its mind-boggling.

And now, that the man is down, has apologized, resigned, and retired.  It’s not good enough for you, Annie Thorsdottir, and Katrin Davidsdottir to name a few have shown their disdain that he still owns Crossfit?! What?  He didn’t kill Floyd?  He should LOSE his life’s work over a tweet? Why is this not enough for you, you’re no better than the rioters and looters, you see someone punching someone on the ground and rather than help them up you all join in a kick and punch too?  You’re barbarians, truly lacking in any empathy, humanity, or morals that you are all making sure that everyone thinks you have!

Crossfit’s entire existence is without any prejudice, all races, all
countries, all cultures do it and teach it.  So the fact that you can
even say out loud that Greg Glassman is a racist or made any type of
racist comments is absurd, and you all know it.

This is YOUR chance to pretend like you are perfect, your morals are
too high to stand for such inequality,  such injustice, you’re too
racially woke to tolerate this kind of insulting dialogue.  You must
sever all ties, you must break away from any association with such
blatant racism.

The only thing that you are doing is showing everyone that there is no
such thing as loyalty, no honor, no debt, no integrity.  You jumped
ship at the first sight of the storm.  Every man for himself.  Save
yourself first, while pretending its for the plight of the black man.
Keep telling yourself that.  I know it’ll help you sleep better at
night.  Cause if you don’t cower to society and repeat after them,
they will ostracize you, your business your livelihood. One tweet does not negate a life of work and good. One mistake does not negate 1000 good deeds.

People forget where they came from.  People forget what got us here.
For the love of god have a bit of a backbone you slithering
hypocrites.  Just take your turn on the soap box “instagram”. and let
everyone know how outraged you are, it’s contrived, and artificial.
about as helpful as your thoughts and prayers, every time there’s a
school shooting.

You’re all pussies!  Weak-minded sheep. Just following suit so you
look good to the other sheep.  Are you also the same people wanting to
defund the police?  asking for a friend?

“The wonderful thing about bluntness is that it gauges the strong and
intimidates the weak.” – Tony Blauer

I’m Jewish. I think we know a little thing or two about racism by
default.  Remember a little thing called the Holocaust?  Where one man
convinced millions of people that all Jews must die just because
they’re Jewish?  Ummm that might have something to do with racism. My
grandmother watched her mother and father be pulled from her arms, be
separated by gender and put in a gas chamber. And killed.  My
grandfather had his parents and ten siblings ripped from his home and
put on trains all to be sent to concentration camps and ultimately
killed.  Killed!   Cause they were Jewish!  Literally for no other
reason.   So don’t you fucking try and teach me about racism.

Now before you burn me at the stake.  I do not condone what the
officer did to George Floyd. That would make me a racist.  Especially
if I were to say I’m glad he killed him. Especially because he’s
black.  But I’m NOT SAYING THAT.  That officer should go to jail.
Period.
Racism exists.  No denying that but NEWS FLASH Racism is not rampant
in the world.  It is not sytemic and it is not what it used to be. You’re a martyr or misinformed if that’s what you
believe.  If you’re not successful, it’s not because you’re black. Its
cause you’re not trying hard enough.  There is a very very long list
of very successful wealthy black people, try googling it or ask Morgan
Freeman.

Wanna rap. Go ahead
Wanna buy a house. Go ahead
Wanna get married? To a white person to a gay person to a fish? Go ahead
Wanna go to school? Go ahead
Wanna be president? Go ahead
Wanna be a senator? A police chief? A dentist? A brain surgeon? An
actor? Drive a bus? Make kombucha? A football player? An accountant? A
police officer?  What can’t you do because your black?   What?  Name something, ill wait. If you feel oppressed that’s on you!  That’s not my fucking fault. I’ve never
owned a slave. I’ve never not let a black person on a bus, I’ve never
not let a black man in my home.

I had a fucking home invasion. A real one!  Where 4 black young men
rang my doorbell and came into my home. My fucking home! with loaded
guns and held them to my head and my kids faces! And I’m still not
fucking racist. You know why? Cause I know the difference between a
criminal and a law-abiding citizen!   Nothing to do with race!

If I see a black doctor I don’t run away screaming! That would be
racism.  If I see a black robber with a gun aimed at me I’m gonna run.
That’s not racism.

If you don’t want to have a problem with the police, don’t cause one!
Be a law-abiding citizen, don’t spit in a cops face, listen when they
talk, be respectful, don’t run when they say “freeze” don’t hang around
drug dealers, thieves, murderers, robbers, carjackers,  Cops do NOT
walk up to people and shoot them for no reason, You can’t possibly
believe that!  All of you fucking geniuses wanting to De-fund police,
You should try going on a little ride along , and see what the police deal with, the
insanity that goes on.  The shit they see and deal with.  Most of you pussies can’t even handle the sight of a spider!! You are IGNORANT and sheltered.  Bad shit and
dangerous people exist everywhere.  We need the police, more now then ever.

#peace

I’m not panicking, you are.  And because of you’re panicking, I have to
start panicking!

I will try to put this as politely and eloquently as I can, but there
will be a few swear words scattered throughout.

This is not at all in any way telling you what to do, this is just
telling you what I will be doing.  You do what you want.  you do what
you think is best, and save your arguments and contrarian opinions to
yourselves.  This is cathartic for me.  I am angry and need to vent.

Here are my observations:

People die every day.  you can die crossing the street, going down the
stairs.  driving in a car.  All life is valuable I am not saying just
to let these people die.  But keep things in perspective people!
People die, every day, that’s just a reality.

Opioids were involved in more than 67,000 drug overdose deaths in 2018
650k people die from the common flu annually.   Shouldn’t that be
considered a pandemic? The numbers for COVID-19 are not even close to
that number, so why has the world come to a screeching halt?   The
numbers in the USA … the entire country, listed on the CDC website
as of March 18 2020

Total cases: 7,038
Total deaths: 97

And those numbers are based on this:

Travel-related269
Close contact276
Under investigation6,493
Total cases7,038

6493 UNDER INVESTIGATION…. wtf ???  that means that they could be
anything else but Coronavirus!  literally anything, asthma, drugs,
heart condition, obesity, for fucks sake people!

The numbers the media and the government are giving us are all
manipulated and not based on actual facts, they are giving us
estimated projected figures
The ACTUAL numbers, if you can even trust that information, are LOW,
actually very low!  the fact that the hospitals are overloaded and
turning people away is because of YOU, the panic dealers!  80% of the
people at the hospitals don’t have the virus and are actually
contributing to the spread by exposing themselves to other people that
actually have it!  People are scared and running to hospitals at the
first sign of any symptoms, even if they are minor!

This isn’t the first time “they” are trying to scare us.  Aids, SARS,
Ebola.  I have no clue who “they” are, but I do know there are bigger
plans at play here.

There was less panic over the piles of dead bodies during the
holocaust then there is over this virus!

The reach has gotten too big, with social media, Snapchat and the
internet.  It’s too much.  The amount of “experts”. and opinions are
exponential and equally useless.  No one knows wtf is going on, its
literally like broken telephone, you hear or read something then
repost add a few opinions, and spread more bullshit even the CDC and
WHO have changed their advice from day to day, no one knows a fucking
thing!

All of you morons reposting articles, advice, judgment, suggestions,
whether its political or virus related are perpetuating panic and
fear! I know you think you’re helping, but you’re not.  There is no
fact-checking, there is just an abundance of biased opinions based on
fear or hate.  So go back to banning straws, and bringing your
reusable bags to the grocery store! At least that is a tiny bit more
useful…

At the end of this, I guarantee there will not be piles of bodies in
big man-made pits due to the fucking COVID-19 virus.  iI will be all
the people who jumped!  out of a window or off a bridge because they
lost their jobs, their homes, their businesses, and the entire economy
crashed!  This much I can promise you, and I’m not a fucking expert.
It will be this century’s Great Depression.  I guess its mandatory
every century.

All of you DOOMSday preachers, saying this will get MUCH worse before
it gets better… bitch please, YOU’RE making it much worse. you are
actually the problem!   You are spreading the plague!  The plague of
fear.  You are the reason for toilet paper shortages and insanity!
Doomsday dealers have been around forever, make a sign and go hang out
where you belong, on the corner of the Bellagio and the Las Vegas
strip!

the blood on your doorposts will serve as a sign, marking the houses
where you are staying. When I see the blood, I will pass over you.
This plague of death will not touch you when I strike the land of
Egypt”   Keep dreaming, this isn’t a fable you can wish for!

How about everyone just calms the fuck down, I am NOT saying in any
way that I want to get sick, or I want to die, or that I am ignoring
the facts, or being ignorant, there is a huge difference here!
Perspective, it’s powerful.

I am truly not a conspiracy theorist, but if it looks like a duck and
quacks like a duck, its a duck!  If it is not crystal clear to you
that this has Politics written all over it, then you must be on the
“other side”  The country and the economy were thriving!  There is an
election fast approaching, and coming off the coattails of a failed
impeachment trial, something had to be done.  This is going to crush
all that progress, but that’s neither here nor there.  We will either
have to rebuild through a recession or somehow make a speedy recovery,
either way, every one of you will play your part!

All you “people” blaming the president, or the government, or god, or
your neighbor…They didn’t act fast enough, they acted too fast, They
didn’t close borders soon enough, stop flights, You have No clue what
is involved with any of these decisions if you are bitching or judging
how they are made!  You should shut up or run for president if you
think you can do a better job, from your condo in Miami, fucking
mind-blowing, especially from Canadians,  its hysterical!  You need to
take a step back, just do your part,  no one person is going to save
you or us, the fact that we need a global message to go out to the
human race to wash their hands or to stay home if you’re sick is sad
and scary at the same time!  This is the part of the story that should
have you worried and scared.

I watched all 8 seasons of the walking dead, and my only take away
from that show is very applicable to this event.

There is always a Neegan!  There will always be bad humans, always, no
matter the circumstances.  People that always want more, more money,
more power, more control.  You have to stay calm, you have to be
smart, and you have to have guns! I plan on all 3! I don’t know what’s
going to happen maybe it’ll be a fucking zombie apocalypse but you
know what I’m ready!

~humanity’s hate for each other is stronger than that of it’s own self
preservation

stay safe people and for fucks sake wash your hands, even when there
isn’t a panic-driven motive

Here we are. 2015. We met in 1993 at my dads restaurant. By chance, by luck, by accident, who knows. All I know is we’re here now. As you all know I am not a believer in much, I don’t believe in soulmates, prayers, religion, luck, God, politics, vegetarianism.

I know that we didn’t get here by accident or by chance. We got here for a reason. That reason is true love. Not in the “one true love sense” more in the literal sense of the words. We truly love each other. I know this to be true now. After questioning it at different times in our relationship. I don’t think Tony is the only Man in this world for me. Nor do I think I’m the only woman for him. There are so many people in the world. That can’t possibly be true. What I know is we chose to love each other. I’ve waited for him and he’s waited for me. We’ve each gone through many struggles in our life together. We’ve taken turns hating each other.  We went to therapy individually and together (that may not have been the best idea) it hasn’t all been Facebook posts of us holding hands on the beach #fakepeopleslivesonfacebook we don’t always get along HA!  We’ve worked together for 22 years. raised 3 children, had many pets, shared losses and wins.

I love you with all my heart Tony️

It doesn’t matter if your kids love you, it’s not their job. It’s your job to love them.

Preface- I don’t really care what your personal opinions of me are, whether you think I am unhappy, cynical, pessimistic, negative or fucked up. This is MY interpretation of what this week means to me. Is it selfish, probably, but this is about ME after all, so why wouldn’t it be. This is a mother’s perspective. Take it with a grain of salt and for what it’s worth. Simple

It took me 2 hours to write this post, and 24 hrs to edit it due to the uncontrollable sobbing.  This week marks one of the saddest events in my life. Why? How is this possible? Did someone die? Found out I’m sick? Did I lose something important? No, way bigger than any of those.

This Friday, my first born daughter Maddy graduates High School. Then in September, she also turns 18 years old. This is truly one of the most gut-wrenching moments of my life. For so many reasons.

Everyone throws parties, everyone eats cake, everyone brags about where their child will be going to college. It’s a time of joy and celebration. Yet all I want to do is sit in a corner on the floor and cry nonstop.

For those of us that have children, there is truly no greater joy or love possible. Sadly no one without children can understand this.   You literally grow a human being inside of you. I honestly think pregnancy and motherhood is one of the single most underappreciated or understood concepts in the world. We make other humans! We are the only people in the world that can do that. What power. When your baby is born, it literally takes your breath away. And from that day forward you spend every single moment trying to take care of them. Teach them, guide them, protect them, help them, be there for them, and worry about them. Constantly.

Really it’s kind of shitty job. It’s very one-sided. Consisting of mostly pouring everything you have into making this person as independent as you can so they can go on to move out, get married have children of their own and do what you just spent your parenting life preparing them for.   Then you’re left just watching. Waiting for a text or a phone call to say hi, or maybe grab lunch or have a family dinner.   Then hope they have time to visit you in your nursing home a few times a year. ( grim, perhaps… the truth… abso-fuckinglutely. )

Now, I know this may seem a bit dramatic. But is it really? It’s what I did to my parents. I couldn’t wait to leave, move out, start my own life. Not in a bad way, I wasn’t abused, I didn’t have a shitty childhood, and at the time my family was quite cohesive, grandparents, aunts and uncles, cousins, Shabbat every Friday night at Bubby and Zeidi’s. It wasn’t until I became a real adult that the reality was very different. The family of people that I grew up surrounded by, turned out to be a bunch of adults, all with very different ideas of love, different agendas, different children, different personalities and all independent of each other. Now most of us don’t speak to one another. Sad but true. I was always in a rush to grow up, start my family. I wanted to have kids young so I could be young parent and have as much time as possible with my kids. Be able to see their kids. Be with them as long as I could.   But now I see that all we really have are the years that our kids let us have. When it is time for them to start their families, careers, adventures, and lives, they WILL.

This is ultimately the goal. Isn’t it? Well, I will tell you that it is the worst feeling in the world.

Am I proud, fuck yeah. Is she amazing? Fuck yeah. Is she smart, funny beautiful, powerful, She is everything you could possibly want your daughter to be and more. And, with all of that I have to let her go. Go into the world without me. Go meet a man, and pray he doesn’t hurt her, even though he will. Hope that she has a great life, with whatever her version of happiness and success is.   Watch her struggles from outside. She has to do this. It’s everything I have worked towards for 18 years. I did my best, even though I made too many mistakes to even recount, I did good.

While I may be a little ahead of myself here, she is NOT moving out just yet, and she still comes home to me most nights J Its coming. The reality is looming over me like a huge storm cloud just waiting to crack and explode on top of me. It’s truly awful.

I will be here for her anywhere, anytime, any way I can forever. Even though the fear of her not using that lifeline very often kills me. It is all in her hands. There is nothing I can do. Nothing.

It truly is a cliché, but it goes by so fast it hurts. There’s not much you can do to slow it down, all you can do is try to enjoy as much of it as you can. That’s all.

Despite all this sadness, fear of loneliness, and despair, I am truly as proud and grateful as any mother can be. I support her every move. In an effort to make sure she doesn’t rush into her life like I did, I advised Maddy to take a year off. No need to rush into or even go to college. She has been in the schooling system since the age of 3. I told her to take a year to be a kid. She is lucky enough to not NEED to work if she doesn’t want to, even though she does want to. She is lucky enough to live in one of the most incredible beautiful places on earth in my opinion. Be free! Surf, or don’t. Sleep in, or don’t. Eat pancakes and donuts, or don’t . Because once you put your foot in the door , you are diving head first into the rest of your life.

I love you so much Maddy I can’t breathe. I need you to know that and understand that. Maybe one day when you are 43, and your daughter or son turns 18 you will. I know I do now.

Love MOM