I didn’t marry my soulmate

EU trip montageI don’t believe in soulmates. I don’t believe that there is only one person in the world for each of us. I believe in love. Connections. And lots of energy and effort. It’s actually quite amazing the relationships that can develop if you invest in them. This applies to every relationship. Not only marriages. Our marriage is not what it was 20 years ago. It has had many evolutions. I’m mostly grateful for each one 🙂 we have been through many life changing events together and we have survived all of them somehow. (That’s not to say I didn’t want to suffocate him with a pillow a time or two.) This time with Tony was very healthy and very needed by both of us. I take comfort in knowing that we both enjoyed each other very much. In more ways than one. Genuinely think we have made it this far for a reason. For that I am happy. Just like all the different ages in my life have taught me many things, so did our life together. We have really grown with each other. Been through births, deaths, pets, homes, cities, graduations, surgeries, a miscarriage, a 25 year struggle with anxiety, a home invasion, a corporate invasion, and many many other events just like most of you. Sometimes it makes me sad to think that people we know are just starting out. Having babies. Buying their first home. Doing things that we did so long ago. Our son Nick is 23 and moved to Montreal. Maddy is graduating high school in a month, and minutes away from starting her life, and then Livvy who is only 13, but so mature and independent she barely needs us :-). I feel like this was the trip to prepare us for our next phase. I am thankful we still like each other. I know we love each other. But liking each other is more important. With that I will let you go until 12 Hours from now when we will be back in San Diego with our family. Xo ‪#‎mericafuckyeah‬ I love you @tonyblauer

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